Something just triggered my mood and spoilt it. Had to take a break from work coz I can't think anymore. Maybe the course of my work and what I do, it looks like a 'playful' thing. It's not a serious job. Serious means being corporate and dealing with multi-million dollars, whereas, DJ equipments, entertainment, talents..... are just 'toys' and playful things. Its true that I don't make millions but I'm grateful that I could give my family a decent living. I don't owe people money or favours, nor have hatred in anyone.

Sometimes it is easier to blame others for any problems that come onto you. It's kinda natural that we prefer not to look at ourselves first. Being said that, let me take the responsibility and absorb the faults of others. It's not gonna make me any more or lesser rich, nor I give a shit! If mis-communication is the base of all separations, how about communication - which mostly taken out of context, just to aggravate sourness.

Through time, I've learned to keep my mouth shut and just observe. Through time, I've learned to speak the truth even if it hurts, especially to love ones. Through time, I've learned that it won't hurt as much if it was taken in an open mind and not specifically targeted at a particular being. Through time, I've learn to forgive and learn........ for the sake of love. Through time also I learned that one speaks of something but feel and meant the opposite. If you're not confused yet, you're definitely a better person than I am. That means, I'm just like the rest....... imperfect.

Many a times, I heard a conversations between couples that goes like .....

women : you're not single anymore. whatever you do will affect us as a couple. there are some things you should change........
man : for the sake our our future, I'll make do my part.......

months later......... after some changes and a different level of commitment.

women : you're not the man I knew.........
man : the man you knew were single, free and uncommitted........

bear in mind that these conversation is not directed or has got nothing to do with anyone, any situations at any time. It's just something that passed my mind few years back.

In conclusion, best friends should be able to take criticism and talk about finding solutions together instead of leaving it to follow where the wind blows. In time, it will fly far away that it'll get lost and never find its way back. Shit happens too many times.